Courage; A Time to Regroup Part 5
COURAGE
A Time to Regroup # 5
The black case for my eyeglasses filled with pens, change, Chapstick and credit cards, along with a green leather coaster I use for sitting hot drinks, lay on the wooden table, next to where I sit on the couch. Somewhere along the way, I turned my eyeglass case into a paperweight, where a check that needs to go out and incoming mail that needs attention find its way. The green leather coaster I use moves around a good bit, sliding it forth for a hot drink I’m enjoying, and back when I’m not using it.
On Friday, as my husband and I were doing an afternoon chicory drink, I noticed the green leather coaster laying on a thank you note I received from a company called Forage. However, it was covering “Fo” and all I could see was “rage.” At first, I thought the beginning letters were “cou” for courage.
Quickly, the Lord brought to my mind, that one cannot have COURAGE, if there’s undealt with “rage,” bitterness in their heart. I know about this well, having supernatural signs and wonders manifest in the summer of 2002, when God delivered me from the spirit of rage, to which I was clueless. I thought I was a joyful person, and generally have been most of my life. I wasn’t alone in thinking I was a happy person; others knew me as well. I’d not had any episodes of rage in my dealings with others.
Like stress accumulating, bitterness in my soul amassed, to where it no longer could be contained. All the memories of my past became the stockpile of fuel to feed my thoughts and emotions, as I held them like pictures in a memory book. I would sit in the den of my soul, captive to these memories that encased me in a silent prison of rage.
This is the thing though, I didn’t know I had bitterness in my heart towards others, that allowed the spirit of rage to attach to it, being my justification to look at and talk about others poorly. Christ calls this murder.
21 “You have heard that it was said to the men of old, You shall not kill, and whoever kills shall be liable to and unable to escape the punishment imposed by the court. 22 But I say to you that everyone who continues to be angry with his brother or harbors malice (enmity of heart) against him shall be liable to and unable to escape the punishment imposed by the court; and whoever speaks contemptuously and insultingly to his brother shall be liable to and unable to escape the punishment imposed by the Sanhedrin, and whoever says, You cursed fool! [You empty-headed idiot!] shall be liable to and unable to escape the hell (Gehenna) of fire.” Matthew 5:21-22 AMPC
In 2002, as the Lord dealt with me, getting my attention with the supernatural encounter I was in the midst of, as the Kingdom of Heaven was in my house, it was undeniable what was in my heart.
In the last bit of this supernatural experience, I was placed face down on the floor, with my knees under my belly and my arms outstretched, as a huge thumb that seemed to go from the top of my neck to the bottom of my spine, was on my back keeping me there, and I heard God say, “repent.” I began repenting of all the pain I had towards others in my heart, releasing them from the prison of my mind, that had me captive. It had been the justification to judge others continually under a microscope, looking for deficiencies and where they fell short.
After my deliverance, the chains broke, a huge weight was lifted off me. Like a kite, I felt light as a feather, a strength given to me, exploding with power where momentarily I felt that I could run a marathon. I was free! It was then I learned about the mask one puts over rage, twisting the Word, using the world’s modalities and theories, to justify actions that are divisive, impatient, and that lead to strife.
I will get into this in a moment, exposing how Christians use the modalities of psychology, contrary to truth, in order to justify their silent rage, a bitterness they’re unable to get past, as they use boundaries inappropriately, the highest form of manipulation in gaslighting someone as a scapegoat, hypnotizing others with their words, as undealt with bitterness goes unchecked.
God brought to mind how it's impossible to have courage, when there is hidden rage within the heart. Fear is the fuel source that feeds rage, which is bitterness on hyperdrive. Hyperdrive can be “a state of frantic activity,” and is known to be a “propulsion system to travel in hyperspace.” This is a great depiction of rage, stemming from bitterness that is in one’s past from their perspective, in which they constantly are driven back and forth through memories based on a narrative within their mind, in which the travel on hyper speed, feeds off the fears within those memories, that create a recipe for disaster. Disaster is “an event or fact that has unfortunate consequences,” and “a person, act or thing, that is a failure.” This is what undealt with bitterness looks like, a disaster waiting to happen, looking at other people’s failures.
David knew this well in 1 Samuel 25, fueled with the memories of being betrayed by king Saul, whom he loved and served and Jonathon, the king’s son, who’d been his best friend. He was now out in the wilderness trying to help an ungrateful man, at which point, David’s silent rage came to the surface, making itself known as he wanted to kill all the males at Nabal’s camp. By God’s grace, Nabal’s wife, Abigal came to encourage David, prophesying to him that he’d be king over Israel one day, as well as providing food for he and his men.
David acknowledged that Abigail’s act had kept his hands clean of blood guiltiness. (1 Samuel 25:33)
It’s Easy to Stay Offended.
Nowadays the theories of the world can facilitate one’s silent rage, as it justifies their actions of divisiveness, strife, and impatience. We see this with the discomfiture in the church, as families have ill will, neighbors have arguments, and there’s lack of generosity, much less being courteous and respectfulness. (James 3:14-16)
In the book I’ve been writing almost 3 years, “The Forbidden Fruit, the Spiritual Disease,” I’ve brought in a new science into Chapter 2, showing the interruption Jesus brought to the Kingdom of the world, to wake up those under the spell of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. God revealed to me in relation to Romans 12:2, which is the main basis of this book, compared to Romans 12:1 that was the basis for “Mindfulness, the Mind of Christ,” that the transformed mind, wakes us up from the slumber of conformity to this world.
“Do not be conformed to this world (this age), [fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs], but be transformed (changed) by the [entire] renewal of your mind [by its new ideals and its new attitude], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God, even the thing which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His sight for you].” Romans 12:2 AMPC
Here's an excerpt from my book, “The Forbidden Fruit, the Spiritual Disease,” bringing in the definition of the Greek word for conformed.
“The Greek word for conformed is syschēmatízō pronounced soos-khay-mat-id'-zo meaning “to fashion alike, CONFORM TO THE SAME PATTERN, conform to, FASHION SELF-ACCORDING TO.” This comes from two Greek words, the first being sýn pronounced soon meaning, “denoting union; with or together; by association, companionship, process, resemblance, possession, etc.” The second Greek word from which it comes is schema pronounced skhay'-mah meaning, “external condition, fashion, and habitus.”
In sociology, habitus “is the way that people perceive and respond to a social world they inhabit, by their personal HABITS, skills, and disposition of character.” Conform indicates being conditioned and fashioned to the habits and schema of the world.
The English word schema is defined as “a representation of a PLAN or THEORY in the FORM of an outline or MODEL.” When satan brought a new kingdom on earth, he brought it through the avenue of a new PLAN, a THEORY within the mind, to which he wanted mankind to FORM and MODEL. This model came through the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. This is what we’re to wake up from, the grand illusion, of the false reality of the kingdom of the worlds normal. In Chapter 3, I will bring in the schema of the form of the kingdom of the world, to which people unknowingly allow their God given gifts to be used, living a false reality of their destiny.” (The Forbidden Fruit, the Spiritual Disease, pg. 85 by Robin Kirby-Gatto)
Do you understand satan didn’t just snap his fingers and make the kingdom of the world appear? Instead, he planted a MODEL, PLAN, THEORY, for mankind to take on its FORM, to Con-Form. This is no different than what’s been provided in modalities, plans, and theories of the world, as the church has taken on the world’s way of doing things, twisting the Word of God, keeping people in their bitterness, as they justify the silent rage, with the ways of the world, keeping them in unforgiveness, where they play the blame game, murdering others with their words and actions. It justifies one not walking in love, being impatient, insisting on their own way or it’s the highway, looking at others poorly.
Masked bitterness calls it a boundary to what the world deems, justifying the venom of satan’s lies that has poisoned the soul, making them feel stoic instead of convicted. I’ve taught on boundaries since going to Henry Cloud’s conference in 1999, reading his book, and implementing it in my individual and group therapies, as a psychotherapist. However, what I see today is a manipulation of that gift of boundaries, in order to mask bitterness, allowing one to be unaccountable to God where there’s no conviction of truth. David could have done this with Nabal, who was a fool and harsh. Thank goodness for Abigail, who addressed David’s heart, resuscitating him back to the Kingdom of God and God’s ways. Abigail in Hebrew means “My Father is joy.”
With courage is joy. There’s no animosity but release from the past, as you no longer hold onto things that others did to you, that’d been used as a weapon, holding you to the plan and theory of the kingdom of the world, to hypnotize yourself and others of why you can stay bothered and in strife with another, unaccountable to the Word of Truth.
10 “Why do you criticize and pass judgment on your brother? Or you, why do you look down upon or despise your brother? For we shall all stand before the judgment seat of God. 11 For it is written, As I live, says the Lord, every knee shall bow to Me, and every tongue shall confess to God [acknowledge Him to His honor and to His praise]. 12 And so each of us shall give an account of himself [give an answer in reference to judgment] to God. 13 Then let us no more criticize and blame and pass judgment on one another, but rather decide and endeavor never to put a stumbling block or an obstacle or a hindrance in the way of a brother.” Romans 14:10-13 AMPC
“Bless those who persecute you [who are cruel in their attitude toward you]; bless and do not curse them.” Romans 12:14 AMPC
“Strive to live in peace with everybody and pursue that consecration and holiness without which no one will [ever] see the Lord.” Hebrews 12:14 AMPC
Joshua, knew the place in which his leadership would be strengthened, was the place of peace, as God would lead him to take Israel into the Promised Land. Everywhere Joshua would put His foot, God would give it to him. He simply had to remember one thing, to meditate on God’s Word day and night, keeping the heart of God in sight, as he kept his heart pure.
God told Joshua four times in Joshua 1 to have courage. Courage in Hebrew is ʼâmats pronounced aw-mats' meaning, “to be alert, physically or mentally afoot maintaining courage, confirm, be courageous, of good courage, STEADFASTLY MINDED, fortify, increase, etc.” (Strong’s Concordance Hebrew word # 553) The Hebrew letters that compose courage are Aleph, Mem, and Tsade. Aleph is the ancient symbol of an ox meaning, “strength, beginning, and first.” Mem is the ancient symbol of water that in the positive means “massive and flooding.” Finally, Tsade is the ancient symbol of a fishhook, meaning, “caught, desire, and need.” The three Hebrew symbols combined form the word picture STRENGTH FROM THE BEGINNING THAT FLOODS YOU MASSIVELY, GIVING YOU THE DESIRES THAT HAVE CAUGHT YOU, SUPPLYING YOUR NEEDS.
Praise God! God supplies to you whatever it is you need, as you decide to let go of the past, knowing that His promises for you are yes and amen. He gives you the desires of your heart. He longs for you to know that you are covered under the banner of His love. (Song of Solomon 2:4) This is your banquet, feeding off of God’s love, and but by the grace of God, are you able to be sustained.
God told me that I’d be writing this note today and woke me up at 3 am to write this for someone here. You’ve been masking your bitterness, wondering why you don’t have true joy, and feel full of fear. It’s because of the silent rage, your need to deal with the issues of the heart, to let go and forgive.
35 "But love your enemies and be kind and do good [doing favors so that someone derives benefit from them] and lend, expecting and hoping for nothing in return but considering nothing as lost and despairing of no one; and then your recompense (your reward) will be great (rich, strong, intense, and abundant), and you will be sons of the Most High, for He is kind and charitable and good to the ungrateful and the selfish and wicked. 36 So be merciful (sympathetic, tender, responsive, and compassionate) even as your Father is [all these]. 37 Judge not [neither pronouncing judgment nor subjecting to censure], and you will not be judged; do not condemn and pronounce guilty, and you will not be condemned and pronounced guilty; acquit and forgive and release (give up resentment, let it drop), and you will be acquitted and forgiven and released." Luke 6:35-37 AMPC
God showed me with Christ is the Overflow of Unity the acronym for COU in COURAGE. We see this in John 17, as Christ tells His disciples that the world will know them by their love for one another, their unity. The display of this in Psalms, is Psalm 133, where the Oil of Unity is poured out, there’s a blessing of Life forevermore. That Life is the Light of Christ in us, shining into the darkness of the world, overcoming fear! Perfect Love drives out fear, where there’s no thought of punishment or dread, there’s unity, love! (1 John 4:18)
God bless!
Robin Kirby-Gatto
Will have video up tomorrow!