Go ahead and have a nervous breakdown, the real real
Saints, please her my heart (intentions), which is to bring freedom to those in need. I will share about this on today's Walking With Wisdom. This is a week for freedom to those who are in need.
For many years I stayed in a congregation where I was grossly attacked by the enemy, and had grace to endure until 2011. God gave me dreams, which I've shared in many books, before the persecution began. Rich even commented that he couldn't believe I had the dream, to which I repented to God, only to later find out that EVERY DETAIL happened as it was laid forth, revealing the enemy's attack of persecution. I won't get into all the details, just to say it was beyond normal, and was spiritual abuse. God sent me to that congregation for me to receive Holy Spirit and power in the midst of them, and to be a messenger of grace and warn them.
Their treatment and gossip about me was beyond measure, as they attempted to try and cast devils out of me while in conversation many times, intimidating me in Sunday School as they stood in front of me saying I had the Jezebel spirit, and surrounding me when i prayed as though they had to bind the devil in me, as well as being cold, rolling their eyes and the like. I endured this for nearly 8 years. Then it was unbearable that God had me leave.
Fortunately, I was blessed with a sister coming forward who was convicted by the Holy Spirit and she told me that she couldn't believe I stayed during all of that spiritual abuse, to which she confessed what the group did and repented for being in agreement with them; she knew it was bad fruit. Even after I left in 2011, this group continues to have people on my Facebook wall, whom I began to unfriend and block, so I could cut off all open pathways to them. They've been infuriated that they've told all who come into contact with me that I was a teacher at their church and a drunk the entire time up to 2011, while teaching there. With that said, it was another lie.
This is my point though, their fruit was demonic, of hell. They were the thorn and thistles of the enemy against my soul, the messenger of satan sent to buffet my flesh. Right before I left, I told Rich he could come by himself but I no longer would attend this congregation. My last day there I felt knives and spears coming all in me, and was falling down walking out of there and had to get help from Rich to get me to the car, leaning on him the entire time, coming out of that place.
In the last 3 weeks I've been hearing wolf, and this past weekend going to Virginia saw the tag BADWOLF. Last night God said, "Robin the wolf devours," as I read Jesus' parable about sending His sheep out among wolves. The wolf is a metaphor of someone who devours another with their words. They might not do it to your face, but they do it behind your back. Psalm 12:2
With that said, God allowed me to get to my breaking point again this week, where I felt as though I was going to have a nervous breakdown just as I've felt so many times among those who speak ill of me. I can feel their thoughts and words, invisible in the spiritual and quantum physics realm as frequencies, which I talk about in my book, Rev 22:2.
The enemy wants you to have a nervous breakdown and feel like your crazy. However, God wants you to know your breaking point, of when you decide enough is enough! I endured this in 2007-2008 as I was persecuted from every angle by the church and those outside of the church for different reasons. I was in the darkest hole, when God had me reading John 1:1-18, whispering the scripture with little strength for months. People calling me from all over who didn't know each other, telling me what a BAD PERSON I was, when instead it was the projection of their own self-image onto me.
Hear this; GOD IS FOR YOU, and any tongue within someone used of satan, you have the right to condemn, and when need be, confront! The enemy hates confrontation. He wants those who are devouring others with their words to stay in sin so they die and go to hell. The parable about the wolves is followed with the parable about fruit.
Saints, you will know a tree by its fruit! God told me last night, "Robin you've been in the midst of wolves." He then told me that my last straw of tolerating this bullying behavior, coldness, eye rolling, insults and the like was the last straw as it was years ago, where the devil was trying to make me go crazy and think that I was a bad person. However, things changed that one day in 2008, as the power of Holy Spirit came on me to set me free of other people's opinions.
Saints be on the wise and know that your confrontation might look like a breakdown, and people might talk about your behavior, but hear this, THAT IS ALRIGHT! JESUS HAD A BREAKDOWN IN JOHN 2 WITH THE WHIP IN THE TEMPLE, HE WAS DONE WITH IT!
I continue to pray for my enemies and am so glad, because that woman who repented to me before I left and confessed her sins with the group, died last year of cancer. She is a most precious soul and has many crowns in heaven, of that I'm certain. You never know when someone will take their last breath. Continue to bless and love your enemies, but it doesn't mean you have to tolerate their bullying and bad behavior. It means you have to shake the dust off of your feet and move on!
Last night I had a dream, where these wolves only wanted to order sweet food from bakeries. God showed me that they had teachers or ministers that would only feed them sweet things of this world, which allowed them to stay in sin. THEY WEREN'T CONVICTED BY HOLY SPIRIT! Pray for their salvation!
God bless!
11 And into whatever town or village you go, inquire who in it is deserving, and stay there [at his house] until you leave [that vicinity].
12 As you go into the house, give your greetings and wish it well.
13 Then if indeed that house is deserving, let come upon it your peace [that is, [b]freedom from all the distresses that are experienced as the result of sin]. But if it is not deserving, let your peace return to you.
14 And whoever will not receive and accept and welcome you nor listen to your message, as you leave that house or town, shake the dust [of it] from your feet.
15 Truly I tell you, it shall be more tolerable on the day of judgment for the land of Sodom and Gomorrah than for that town.
16 Behold, I am sending you out like sheep in the midst of wolves; be [c]wary and wise as serpents, and be innocent (harmless, guileless, and [d]without falsity) as doves.
17 Be on guard against men [whose [e]way or nature is to act in opposition to God]; for they will deliver you up to councils and flog you in their synagogues,
18 And you will be brought before governors and kings for My sake, as a witness to bear testimony before them and to the Gentiles (the nations).
19 But when they deliver you up, do not be anxious about how or what you are to speak; for what you are to say will be given you in that very hour and [f]moment,
20 For it is not you who are speaking, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.
21 Brother will deliver up brother to death, and the father his child; and children will take a stand against their parents and will have them put to death.
22 And you will be hated by all for My name’s sake, but he who perseveres and endures to the end will be saved [[g]from spiritual disease and death in the world to come].
23 When they persecute you in one town [that is, pursue you in a manner that would injure you and cause you to suffer because of your belief], flee to another town; for truly I tell you, you will not have gone through all the towns of Israel before [h] the Son of Man comes.
24 A disciple is not above his teacher, nor is a servant or slave above his master.
25 It is sufficient for the disciple to be like his teacher, and the servant or slave like his master. If they have called the Master of the house Beelzebub [[i]master of the dwelling], how much more will they speak evil of those of His household.
26 So have no fear of them; for nothing is concealed that will not be revealed, or kept secret that will not become known.
27 What I say to you in the dark, tell in the light; and what you hear whispered in the ear, proclaim upon the housetops.
28 And do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul; but rather be afraid of Him who can destroy both soul and body in hell (Gehenna). MATTHEW 10:11-28 AMPC